Thursday, April 28, 2005

Today's Reminder

No matter how much needs to be done
It will be done sooner or later
or
Maybe not

Monday, April 25, 2005

Poppy Picture

POPPY

oops / where does that blue background come from ? click slide show and the background will be white / so much for upddating for greater blah blah blah

guess i still have a lot to learn

spose that is good

Icelandic Poppies

i love these poppies / their fragile petals (only Mother Nature cd dream up such a delicacy) and lovely range of colours from pale peaches and yellows and creams to a deep deep orange

i grew them in window boxes or on the terrace of the apartimento in Rome / sometimes i grew nasturtiums or multicoloured anemones / i often thought i was the only person in Rome who didnt grow the ubiquitous ivy geraniums

last spring in California i bought six icelandic poppy plants at the budding stage / decided to forego choosing colours to just getting some young enough to make the trip back to Utah

they did okay here and eventually bloomed pale peach and yellow and cream / there was one orange one

four of them survived the winter here / heavily mulched

the first one to bloom was spectacular orange/gold/tangerine colours with ruffled petals

i took many pictures of it (i just updated iPhoto and iLife5 which apparently makes it more complicated to add a picture to the homepage / patience, my dear, i tell myself)

darn lucky too as the first time i ran my water program for the season a heavy spray of water nearly knocked this plant senseless / i carefully moved it / poppies hate to be transplanted / she seems to be doing okay now / this morning she has put forth another ruffly bloom

meanwhile the other plants are catching up with the blooming and Get This :

so far every flower is bright orange

yes, even the plants that i recall as peach or yellow or cream

now dont that just beat all ?

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Turning Point or Tipping Point ?

turning point : revolving in place
camped out at the crossroads
the future looks the same in all directions

tipping point : out of balance
teetering on the pivot point
dazzled by dizziness

in other words : all routines are under serious scrutiny

the name of the game is Reinvigorating Revision

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Skeeter

of all the cats i have had and there have been many Skeeter is the most freaked out when put in a cage or carrier and hauled off for a ride in a truck

after the last cross country trip we arrived in Moab to stay and i promised him i wd never never again take him anywhere in a cage or car

so i wait patiently for him to die on his own / he sleeps long hours in his basket / he gets up once in a while to go outside where he lounges in his favorite places and then comes back in to drink water and return to his basket

he still drinks a lot of water

he has not had any food for a week

at first i offered all his favorites but, no, he has had enough good stuff in his life to eat / he is ready and he is serene and peaceful

if i were to take him up and maybe carry him in my arms (he never liked being picked up or cuddled) to the vet to be put to sleep it wd disrupt his natural flow / cause him anxiety and fear

soon he will sleep for good and all

Saturday, April 16, 2005

the Last Cat

the Last Cat will soon be the Late Lamented Last Cat

he is sleeping off his life on the catnip express

safe journey, pal

Friday, April 15, 2005

i hover ~~~~

~~~~~ over my seedlings

the Navaho red meat watermelon seeds are just poking through the soil / the seed shell clings to the tender green leaves / i want to pick it flip it nip it off ////oh but i will disturb the process

meanwhile ~~~~

~~~~ i hover

Thursday, April 14, 2005

French Fries

Milt's is a 50's diner built in 1954 / there are eight stools and a take out window / there is a picnic table under the trees

Milt's is one of the oldest and longest running businesses in Moab

the "real Milt" sold out long ago to someone who retained all the Milti-ness with none of the charm

it is said Milt's is one place you can go in Moab where you wont hear The Grateful Dead

at last at long last there are new owners / a young couple / true Moabi / and we know both of their mothers / oh its a small town, is Moab

i heard the french fries were pretty good and the meat is being supplied by The Old Geezer / these are good signs

the french fries are yum / nice and long and fresh and both crispy and soft in just the right balance / and that night i woke thinking of Milt's french fries

oh they make onion rings too ! i do love onion rings

so had some of them and then discovered homemade ice cream sandwiches on homemade chocolate chip cookies made by one of the new owner's mother

smile

i had a restaurant when i was younger / i had Guest Mother Cooks each week and pictures of everybody's mothers framed on the walls

DBA ? Everybody's Mother

i fell in love with a customer / we ran away to live in the mountains / on a mesa overlooking the town of Moab / driving Miss DreamBoat i tootled into town for a chili cheeseburger at Milt's

good gravy i am doing it still

t-shirts with DreamBoat coming soon

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Driving Miss DreamBoat

*Tanka*

5 lines / 31 syllables / 5.7.5.77


Driving Miss DreamBoat
Vintage sixty five dodge dart
toot toot here we come
Beloved gypsy wagon
sheez my Moabius trip

keeping records / daily journals

Thomas Mallon in A Book of One's Own (People and Their Diaries) tells that his father kept every cancelled check and kept them in boxes and these he discovered after his father's death

cool concept

cancelled checks tell one of the stories of your life

handspun handwoven blankets tell stories of my life

series of cartoon drawings in the Daily Do Nut series

all the faces / from the self portraits drawn during mid life crisis time in rome to only my feet

howza bout the collection of recipeez / that dusty disorganized pile

yup

gotta go / time for The Daily Show / smile

must be SynchronCity

Monday, April 11, 2005

The Royal Wedding

i like the way Camillacarries herself : "I ride English"

her wedding hat is totally divine

The Incredible Shrinking Last Cat

His name is Skeeter

once he was so big he was mistaken for a racoon

he is one of two cats i took to Vermont with me from California / then he was one of three cats that traveled from Vermont to Maryland / and yes the same three made the journey to Utah

boy did he ever hate that trip / it took ten days / it was winter / in every motel he hid under the bed and i had to drag him out / one room had a KING sized bed / luckily i was able to move the bed to retrieve him / this was usually by hauling him out by the tail while he dug his claws into the rug / oh we had a lovely relationship

the oher two cats now sleep deep in the back yard while Skeeter claims the distinction of being my Last Cat

he keeps me from starting over with kittens

once he was so big that when you picked him up he was a huge and heavy armload / he was bigger than little dog, Dot / Skeeter hated being picked up so much (oh too much a BIG TOM) that the struggle wasnt worth it

he hated being petted / he hated snuggling or cuddling even though he often slept on my bed / i never heard him purr

he was born in a basket of coloured fleece that was in a rocking chair that was on top of a table (dont ask) at the Happy Trail Spider Works and Bubble Preserve / his mother was Late Sleeper

now he is really up there in years / he was finally neutered after being hit by a car in Vermont

he has always been my least favorite cat so it figures he wd outlast them all (dozens of cats over time)

his most irritating trait was meowing so loudly and so insistently for food that one time i grabbed him up and ran out the back door with him to the stream that flowed behind our house in Vermont / there was a foot bridge there and below a rocky rill where the stream rushed madly around the bend

i held him out over the railing as if i were going to drop him in

well shucks i just cdnt do it

(next day i read in the paper that a woman had thrown her new born baby in a river)

but this is now and Skeeter is the only cat / the last cat

this changes our whole relationship / i decided to kill him with loving kindness and plenty of rich food / chicken livers lightly poached rare / warm cream on cold mornings / and so on / his meows for food became more subdued / i detected an ocasional PURRRR

our most touching moment was the first night i came home from the hospital after the hystericalectomy two years ago / ____ lifted him up onto my bed (he was too heavy for me to pick up / he was over the weight limit and the bed is too high for him to jump onto) so he was picked up and he settled down next to me / and in the dark / in the night / when i touched him / his warmth and aliveness / i was so glad to be home / to be okay / to have survived the ghastly operation

i totally cater to him now / getting out of bed at all times to let him out or let him back in / giving him a little more sensible meals than chicken livers and cream

he doesnt eat much anymore / one eye cant see / he is deaf / i know this because i can vacuum around his basket and he doesnt budge or wake up / he drinks a lot of water / he is losing weight

he is shrinking into old age

someone said the other day, What a Big Cat !

no / he is smaller / much smaller

still big but smaller

i know when i pick him up now (no more struggle) it is easy to feel the difference

he enjoys a brief cuddle and bursts forth with PURR

after a brief interlude

we are back and caterina is yammering about liver

in the kitchen

the rest of the family is home again bringing Native American seeds : Tahitian Squash / Apache CrookNeck Watermelon / Red Meat Hopi watermelon / Navajo Red Seed watermelon / each is planted four times / power number of the Hopi

there is also a packet of seeds for Mountain Spinach that gets six feet tall

wow

Friday, April 08, 2005

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

how to open your larynx

stand or sit up straight so as to open your horizons
bring your hand up to your face / i use my right hand
with thumb and fingers making a C shape

place your thumb on the space between your chin
and your lower
lip
place your index finger on the space between your
upper lip and nose

open your mouth wide while thunb and index finger
apply pressure / this doesnt hurt

go AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

this vibration opens your larnyx/larynx/whatever

just ask anyone

smile

Humble Pie

the full menu for the next few days will be Humble Pie

i will eat my words / chew em up good and spit em out

how liberating to discover and then acknowledge that
my pointless opinions are all wrong and i never never
ever again will find it necessary to voice them / smile

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Lower your voice ~~~~

~~~~ lower your voice
bring it up from an Open larynx

speak softly or quietly
(audibly / with precise
pronounciation
& enunciation)

with sufficient Pauses between thoughts
to allow for Spontaneous evolutions

Hum before you get out of bed in the morning
or whenever else seems appropriate

(Keep it private / be discreet / lessen the blab

LISTEN A LOT

april 17 / aunt maudie's birthday / she is 62 plus 50 = 112!)

4/17/1996