Last day of August

when you bring preconceived mind set to a situation or circumstance
or hold your own preformed idea of who someone is you enter a phase
called brain lock

it's similar to having tunnel vision

release yourself from *pre* conception

and conception will expand

you must perceive to conceive

and be aware on a broad level to perceive

Dream

I dream i can touch the top of my head
to the floor without bending my knees
(much)
and

Dancing,

............... Burst into Song..................


Nothing feels better than feeling
good after you've been feeling bad

Impasse

we are at the impasse
the moon is full
at the still point of a turning world

guess what comes next ?

sometimes it pays to begin at the bottom
and work your way up

Silver Whistle

my daughter is going to a gathering of women to summon up
energy and power for a friend who needs help coming unstuck
from a frightful dilemma / she needs to sell her business and
leave an abusive man behind

things are dragging out so she asked her friends for help

the call goes out / the women gather their forces

i thought i might go to the gathering
until i learned about the drumming

i asked if there would be a lot of drumming
(my frequencies are disturbed by certain kinds
of drumming, i said)

she says the drumming is essential to bring you
back along the shamanic trail

oh

hmmmm

Gene Krupa yes / shamanic drumming no

i said i will send good energy from home

i got out my silver whistle

"Rink guards are required to carry a whistle"
(from the ice skating rink manual)

at the moment i intuited that they were drumming
their way home i went outside and blew my whistle

some fun / i blew and blew and blew

and i blew the whistle some more

i really do like things you blow more than things you beat or hit or thump
when it comes right down to it / or maybe things that shake rattle and roll

smile

and now for a roll in the clover / that awta stir up some energy



skaterina@mac.com

Standstill at the Turning Point

Standstill at the Turning Point becomes an Impasse

an impasse being an Impossible situation
like being between a rock and a hard place

solutions will not be found / that is / will not result
from a search but will present themselves in due time

will they drop from the sky ?
well up from the earth ?

most likely they will spring forth from the spot
between your eyes
(i don't mean your nose)

do you mean The Third Eye ?

perhaps

the Third Eye sees beyond the moment of now

the Third Eye sees All

the Third Eye has a far flung perspective

knowing even as we speak
even as we write
even as we claim
we cant go on
we are going on

you are still breathing are you not ?

your heart is still beating / your blood is pulsing
your eyelids blinking / your mouth even now almost
just almost twitching into a tiny smile and that little spirit
that motivates you is curling up your spine and tingling through
your body and after all you are Alive and Well

Besides !

Here Come Your Allies

Wit Whim and Will ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

The ImpoTangas say :

you are not spose to :
stumble
mumble
grumble
rumble
bumble
or fart


you are not spose to :
burp
belch
drool
drip
trip
or stink


so there

today's comment

to know and to be insouciant
is a strange power

August 2004 / 1988

today i had my eyes examined
the good news is i dont need stronger glasses
my eyes are not that much different than last year
even though i see horses on the slick rock instead of bicycles

some little cataracts instead

no big deal, the doc sez
they can be peeled off
he shows me a big eyeball that comes apart

okay

this time in august 1988 let's see what was happening

i saw an ant bump into a bee on the water saucer (that i keep
on the kitchen window sill to provide water for the bees)
(the ants like it too)

i am reading The Sugar Mother by Elizabeth Jolley
quite the bizarre author / she is an Australian / each one of her books
that i have read is stranger than the one before

the Last Cat looks just like the first cat whose name was Spider
(that was in Rome in 1968)

I am turning over another new leaf

today began at 5am with a coyote chasing the The Last Cat

end of day Murphy causes an accident up on topanga canyon blvd.
during commuter traffic time / "that @#$%^&" darn dog" i hear someone say

Murphy comes running down through the trees
we head for the hills just in time to see the sunset
while an argument ensues above

i spoke to no one today except Murphy, cat, bunnies, birds, ants, bees and spiders

the last batch of weed truly illustrates why it is called dope
(Quick burn down to blister lip (lotsa times)

o - Elizabeth Jolley in The Sugar Mother mentions the Edelweis
- an unexpected and expensive German restaurant in Madrid
(one of my all time favorites)

once we were flying to Rio from Rome / we had a stop in Madrid
just long enough to grab a taxi and have a meal at the Edelweis
those were the daze

(this was written in large felt tip pen on three ring notebook paper
with wide blue lines) (not on the lines / smile) (all over the lines)

(skaterina@mac.com)

Enjoying Life

enjoying life is much easier when
you have the right bladder control
protection (television ad hint)

you enjoy yourself by Letting Go -
by Becoming More of yourself
that is

Get a new Shape
Pick some Brains !
Add some Pizzazz
Throw someone for a Loop
and
Someone Else A Curve

Timing is of the Essence

adopt a Curious Pace plus
Syncopated Butterfly Rhythm

Shaping Up

i've noticed that neuron pathways do not stay permanently blocked
just when you least expect it and for no apparent reason at all
they open up and stuff you thought you had put by, away, outa sight
bursts forth in all its radiance

The Essential Lull

Are you bright enough to understand that reality is shot through with large empty spaces, spaces you could drive a truck through, or conjure up a trick, spaces in which nothing whatsever ocurs? Huh?

In the world of the Improvaho these large empty spaces are called Essential Lulls.

Essential Lulls are designed to avoid foolish moves in public.

Furthermore Essential Lulls often are characterized by forms of restless energy that provoke one into thinking that Something Must Be Done or A Major Decision Affecting the Rest of One's life must be agreed upon and announced to all and sundry.

Nothing could be further from the 'truth' (there will have to be elaborate footnotes regarding 'truth' and its Consequences)

Meanwhile back to the issue of Restless Energy. Often Restless Energy can indicate a need to Rest More.

Hence the Essential Lull is a useful phase for mulling over dreams and schemes that may or may not be necessary to fulfill.

Or you may sit in the sun and wait for the Hummingbird to discover the three white cactus flowers (or other activity suitable to your eco-system and environment)

An Essential Lull is also a fine time to meditate on the Fine Art of Postponement.

I need to think a bit more about this, if you dont mind. Stay tuned in for possibilitease and fresh discoverease now taking shape.


Just when you dont think
you're going anywhere
Grab the Ring
and
Hold On Tight

missing you

sometimes the xmas lights blink in the day
even
when
they're not
turned on at
night

(so much of you here)

Notes to myself

Baby knew she was growing up when
she didnt care anymore if she were
vivacious
or not

Guess What

guess what i found out who my higher power is and sheez this weird
lady who thinks she is an implant from another planet / her name is
Dwadwee Wandrr, isn't that funny / she sez sheez the Hag of Mischief
of the Improvaho

wdnt you know i'd get a higher power like that


i had cold feet / i lost my spirit and humor / i went to a therapy called
GROVEL / i only know one place like it / it's in topanga /
you roll in the dirt and they drop food in your lap and treat you
like a baby


that's where i met Dwadwee Wandrr

Reminder

enlightenment means to unburden yourself

to let go of false expectations

amd the tension of hope

Reenactment

morning comes electric
bitter mixers & elixers
where to plant the Pomegranate
tree
will be the Ultimate
Fixers

when Cranky Dominoes
arrive to play
fall in to space

(what she does, that sneaky one !
keeps secrets
in rhyme
in double tyme crime)

BTW

"There is only one success : to spend your life in your own way."
(Christopher Morley)


though you are obviously not an ordinary human being,
you are still
living the life of an Earthly Woman


i am not afraid of knowing there are other me's
to be and other ways of seeing

Random Delights

for an Improvaho every event

no matter how stale

is always unique


she is always doing the same thing

for the first time


she is curious, avidly curious

and

experimental

experimenting for the sake of experimenting


she has an open mind and an expansive heart

among her many skills . talent . arts

she is an adept at banishing demons


she has an inner strength that deflects

"curses"


and is totally free of the bondage of the

appropriate


@@@@@@@@@


i'm working something out but i dont want
to get to thinking all the time about how
i'm working something out or it just won't
work out

i stand on the brink of clarification
waiting for full light
so i can see the way

too impatient to wait
too uncertain fo plunge boldly forward

hang on / stayed tune in

A Navaho Song of Prayer and Praise

(expression that is spontaneous,
appropriate and sacred is
therefore made without pretension,
easily, with dignity and good will)


You see, I am alive

You see, I stand in good relation to the earth

You see, I stand in good relation to the gods

You see, I stand in good relation to all that is beautiful

You see, I stand in good relation to you

You see, I am alive, I am alive


In the house of long life there I wander

In the house of happiness there I wander

Beauty before me with it I wander

Beauty behind me with it I wander

Beauty above me with it I wander

Beauty all around me with it I wander

In old age traveling with it I wander

On the beautiful trail I am with it I wander




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Improvaho . . . . and how will you express your spirit ?

Rainer Maria Rilke

Rilke created the "object poem" as an attempt to describe with utmost clarity physical objects, the "silence of their concentrated reality."

for today :

"Nor would this star have
shaken the shackles off,
bursting with light,
until there is no place
that does not see you You
must change your life"

Rilke

Paths

paths concurrently running

as a quick running mountain stream shares the path of the still forest

creates its own path

the path becoming one's companion, one's darling, one's shelter, one's love

one's restoration of power

one's reason for being



(a part of the puzzle suddenly falls into place
just suddenly hums

and then there is only the ultimate :
translating personal vision into functional possibility)


the force of your will is personal power
you can only use personal power to control your own behavior
not that of any other living being on this planet

interfere=enter fear

Learning to Write (again)

Writing is based on a carefully planned

and controlled use of attention

(the Second Attention)


specifics :

print legibly / all sizes / any condition

disorganize thoughts

forget all rules of grammar spelling and punctuation you learned in school

well, remember them for future possibilitease, but shelve these for the duration of the "course"

enter neutral area

write down anything that comes to "mind'

when you cant think of anything to write draw something

if you cant draw DOODLE

SCRIBBLE

the wind is howling

scrawl

write as if you were different ages, different people

master as many writing tools and instruments and machines that you can

never stop

New Moon

if the New Moon doesnt chase the Blues

follow up with Heaps of Red

Wine Beets Tomato Sauce !

Linquini with cream

for dessert fresh cherry sorbet

Aw, c'mon

when do you ever call a Sand Witch a Sam Itch ?

When you cant keep Up

keep down

New Moon Chases the Blues

Sammiches

on monday i baked a loaf of classic white sammich bread

using King Arthur Flour from Vermont

i wanted a tomato sammich

using the big round tomato one slice of which will cover one slice of bread

this is one of my home grown tomatoes

(did i mention i am a Tomato Junkie ?)

on tuesday i made some mayonnaise and had a tomato sammich with baby lettuce thinnings picked at dawn

on wednesday i had a sammich with albacore tuna canned by a friend in northern california whose boyfriend caught the tuna

(that was breakfast)

later on wednesday i had a rare coleman hamburger on thin sliced bread with a thick slice of locally grown walla walla onion

(the onion was big enough that one slice covered the bread just like the big round tomato)

with a handful of baby lettuce thinnings

thursday i had another hamburger sammich / this time i toasted the bread

friday i had A Purfect BLT

friday evening while watching the opening ceremonies of the Olympic Games i had a chicken salad sammich

from monday to friday evening i ate six sammiches / i gained a pound

not bad / all things considered

say considering i dont like sammiches all that much except rare and special ones

so today i had three strips of bacon and a zapoteca tomato for breakfast

i had a hamburger salad for lunch (rare meat patty on a bed of mixed greens with a dressing concoction that involves a number of interesting ingredients) (like ginger/hickory)

the remaining loaf of classic white bread will .............. hmmmmmmmmm ..... havent decided yet........stayed tuned in

a self-indulgent pastiche

that's what this blog is

there will be no comments / no about me profile / no rhyme or reason

and

the links wont work



if you really must write something to me :

skaterina@mac.com


be brief / or succinct / or taciturn

short

to the point

no dallying or beating around the bush

quick

as in Quick Alive and all that Jive

Here's what Leonardo da Vinci has to say :

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself. If you are accompanied by even one companion you belong only half to yourself, or even less, in proportion to the thoughtlessness of his conduct; and if you have more than one companion you will fall more deeply into the same plight."

you can dissipate your art in idle conversation



well, that old Leonardo was a great talent with unsurpassed versatility

he was brilliant, many-sided, but dilatory and undependable, likely to leave work half-finished

sounds like an improvaho to me



further if you are supersensitive in psychic ways then the company of others sets up a relentless and perpetual clamor to the spirit

i've gone through all the changes one would expect when one has opted for the geographical cure

the first person you meet is yourself

(what began as a vision quest became a way of life)

still doing everything i used to do but not as
much
and
never
in
public

(or in somebody's kitchen / wink)


(the letter to alison cont. chelsea vt 1995)

the Improvaho Warrior Woman

The power of the warrior woman emanates from that delicate

balance between strength and vulnerability, the wisdom of

experience and the innocence of the child.

The essence of her life is the seach for balance.

The dynamic of her life is the walk-a-bout.

The condition of her life is unpredictable.

Her mystique is primal.

Her colour luminous. Her tone fluid.

She is limber, lithe, brave and wonderful.

Today Message

the easiest thing to forget

is what you are not gonna

do anymore

Chelsea, VT / notes from a rad granny

life with my grandson has been an extraordinary experience / from 12 to 17

in this one of our lives / the magnitude of child-raising boggles the mind / it

takes more than courage / it takes sheer guts

moxie
and
pizzaz

intelligence duzzent matter as much as stamina

Uncondtional Love is Powerful

******

the thing with raising kids is that we dont know who they are

and they dont know who we are / we are in the company of

adventurers

i meant to write "in the company of strangers" / i do so love

to be inadvertent / strangers got erased so i thought well hell

why not adventurers

and so children are adventuring through life and we are witness

********

explorers of planetary power / there are no patterns when

you are out there exploring the universe


(letter to alison / 199?)

Someone there

someone there
serene
in her mourning costume of blue

seething
inside
(self-contradictory hungers)
trying to be someone she knows

Reaching Potanga

when you no longer want what you dont have

and no longer have what you dont want

and appreciate what you do have

this is called in the world of the Improvaho

Reaching Potanga


(ed. note : corresponds to "Bliss" "Nirvana" "Euphoria"


and.....when you no longer Miss what's missing

and are, in fact, and in fancy

doing what you always wanted to do

this is called

OKAY !

feeling good
oh so fine

(nothing to complain about !)


the only Freedom is Impeccable Behavior

(impeccable as in Non-Regrettable,

not Remorseful - no more, oh i wish ida done

Something Else, some other thing


Impeccable also duz not necessarily mean

Neat and Tidy although it is okay to Be So

and to be Meticulous

Careful

(not full of Care but Full of Caring)

Discriminating (and Choosy as in Making Choices -

not just being Fussy

but it's okay to be Fuzzy

as in warm and cuddly, also

smooth & sleek & slick & shiny

^^^^^^^^^^^

This is the mEssage for today

^^^^^^^^^^^

wait a minute I want to know how long it lasts

how long what lasts ?

BLISS ? NIRVANA ! POTANGA !



well, "it" duzzent last at all !

IT JUST IS

IT JUST IS / smile



ps / it pertains to correlation
and is Self-Referential


to be continued


after all is said and done
if you dont get "it"

"It" gets you


tune in for further developments

Dawn

"The conditions of a solitary bird are five :


The first, that it flies to the highest point;

The second, that it does not suffer for company

not even of its own kind;

The third, that it aims its beak to the skies;

The fourth, that it does not have a definite colour;

The fifth, that it sings very softly."


(San Juan de la Cruz,
Dichos de Luz y Amor)

the morning begins

the morning begins on the edge of Grand New Vistas

descends into a brief wallow

here's a dismal thought :

to grow old without having acquired maturity or wisdom

(the emptiness)

(the empty mess)

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Realizations (finally) come Thick and Fast :

to wit :

despondency is a cover up for cowardice

and vice versa

(depression feeds upon itself)



the feeling of being overwhelmed and unable to cope

is a failure of nerve, a lack of self-confidence due to

a low self-esteem (didnt you guess ?) (smile)



and now The Mourning begins

Dormancy Dances

feather costumes
light as liquid air

crisp and snappy

Oh !

(it's all right, ma, i'm only dancing)


(if i knew how i wd insert musical notes here)



&&&&&&


Assignment :

write as if you dont know how

look up words in the dictionary

and mis-use them 5 different ways



(jottings in red on old notebook paper
3 holes / blue lines / undated)

doing time in topanga

tinged, a bell tinged

we had a nice little earthquake yesterday morning.

i say nice, little, because it rocked me in my bed and said

Here you are Safe in your bed Safe in your little house

Safe and nothing to worry about because I am the Earth

and you know my Power and you know how to draw power

and strength from me and not be afraid

but to Exult

and so overnight the world stopped. Ceased to be Changed.

Rang in a new age of exhiliration and tranquility.


The sycamore leaves fall one by one. I think of all the skills

i've acquired in topanga because i start designing in my head

a way to construct a more or less permanent duck pond with the

bathtub water as fill and how it cd be drained to another garden

and how when the bath water is too soapy the water can be

directed elsewhere and everything i've learned at this crazy little

house where to have it the way i want it is to do it myself and how

i never consider (anymore) making it some way some one else

would like it.


but i might not always have these ducks much as i like the power

derived from one green duck egg freshly laid and poached gently

and spooned on a buttered toasted slice of european razen

pumpernikel and so everything "shd" be temporary and why pour

cement for a duck pond when the earth will tremble All Too Soon

and Once More.


Today i have everything.


Food wine dope coffee toilet paper dog food chicken food rabbit food

new toys and enough yarn to knit a tent to cover the whole Bubble.

Pens Paper Glue Kittens Clean Clothes Bright Red Hair, reading glasses


and TIME !


i even have 1/2 tank of gas and $35.00


(The only place i've been i want to go to again is Malta)


I keep thinking i "shd" leave here i bin here long enough -

ten years is a long time

and then i remember

Time cannot be counted like that, valued like that,

and i'll go elsewhere (maybe) when i am ready.

When i doan like it here, when Another Place takes

its place in my heart.

when Wally dies.

when the lemon tree succumbs to being in the wrong

place at the wrong time

when i am sure it has really surrendered than too shall i

Renewal Resurgence Rebirth

Renewal Resurgence Rebirth

Long walk on the Desert

I saved a bug’s life

Dragonfly drown in gin drink dregs.

Pour out dregs.

Leave bug in glass wings plastered flat.

Cant wash him down the drain.

Leave glass.

Return much later.

Bug is ALIVE

Three wings are dry / the body is bent into a U (he has a skinny U body)

Get a twig and lift him out gently

Body Unbends !

He is okay - one wing still dried shut - may open if sits in sun awhile.

He did and it did.



(have you ever seen A Dragon fly?) (i have)

I wanna Be

i wanna be :

Unexacting easygoing relaxed laidback
Casual placid COOL unruffled

together

calm carefree unconcerned (Insouciant!)
careless Nonchalant happy-go-lucky

Cheerful !



but also :


Unexampled ! (unprecedented, unparalleled, unequaled !)

(unmatched unheard of unusual uncommon

Unique uncomparable ! One of a Kind !

special singular individual distinctive different recherche

Out of the Ordinary (indeed, extra-ordinary)

unconventional unorthodox novel new


RARE (Out of the Way)



unflinching, unfaltering, unshaken, unwavering, unflagging, unswerving, undeviating, unbending


Firm
Resolute
Resolved Determined
Staunch Steadfast Stalwart


(Gutsy Plucky Gritty

yeah, team

something about spiders

south wind
hot
a perfect nag


east wind brings
good humored
advances



"The spider sits with its abdomen in the air
and lets the wind pullout a silken thread"

(Spiders and Their Kin / Golden Press 1968)



"The wind moves inside the body of a woman.
The Nagual says that is so because women have
wombs. Once it's inside the womb the wind
simply picks you up and tells you to do things.
The more quiet and relaxed the woman is the
better the results. You may say that all of a
sidden the woman finds herself doing things
that she had no idea she could do."

(Second Ring of Power / Carlos Casteneda)



(It pertains to correlation)


can talent continually unapplied be said to exist ?

what you dont use, you lose
baby

Daze of Dreaming Oh

Daze of Dreaming Oh
How Pleezing
Nudging OnGoing Projects Further in the Cause

of Advancement
enchantment
entrancement

pottering around the Yard and Garden
Slow exploring unearth many treasures - one of those
lavendar mushrooms (used to grow across the creek-I ate them all)

this is the first one in 8-9 years!

the meadow mushrooms grew around the old chicken yard - on now Kelly’s property / they are no more and Tiberio’s bones gone too ever since Kelly’s dug their drain field

Remembering the dream where Aunt Maudie became a baby - is she Betsy’s daughter ? or Lola Jane ?

I recall a “pattern” from the past - one year Dean’s List one year Flunk (almost) (one year out one year in)

or maybe not “year” but cycle of expansion and retreat

(oh how to Treat Yourself to a Retreat)

Have champagne on the deck / later David invites P and Me to fresh steamed mussels - those he collects at Pt Dume

lots of garlick butter French Bread and cheap white wine

(handwrite primary tablet / march 1987)

the grotto

today i bought my ticket for the grotto concert

http://www.moabmusicfest.com

we go by barge down the colorado river after a bus ride to the "put in"

there is a grotto carved by wind and water and weather in the red rock walls of the canyon

we climb up the walls and find places to sit for the concert / or you can bring a chair and sit onthe sandy floor of the grotto

this year there will be a new Steinway Grand Piano / this concert will be its debut at the festival

the program will include Debussy and Bach and Paquito Rivera with his clarinet and some violinists and cellists / our musician in residence this year also plays the bagpipes and the flute

the last two years Judy and i went together / she treated me one year and i treated her last year / the tickets are $250 because it is a benefit for the River

after the concert there is a buffet and mingle with the musicians

mingling is fun

and the boat ride back up the river

a swell jaunt

i hadnt planned on going this year despite it being my next favorite event after the Car Show / but

today i thought shoot how can i miss it / i can go alone*

i love piano music / classical piano music / it reminds me of living in Rome and napping during the afternoon riposa and the countess who lived in the garden apartment played the piano and we dreamed *

*alone
it is not as if i am alone
my eyes are not alone
filled with roses

Bees

in the summer the window over the kitchen sink is open

place a saucer of water on the sill for the bees to drink

they get thirsty in the dry season and there are few places for a bee to get a drink of water

on your body ! a drop or two of water on your body as you sit in the sun, yes, they like that and will sip the droplet off your arm

before i put water out for them on the sill and on my arm they would fly into the bathtub when it was full of water / the bathtub was out the back door under the live oak trees

if you scoop a bee out of the water when he hasnt been in the tub too long he will fly away when dry enough and remember you forever

that’s when i put the saucer out for them / rescuing bees from the bathtub became time consuming

the ants drank from the saucer too / they would ring the puddle of water in the dish (it must be shallow) like covered wagons drawn into a circle

bees and ants will share water and food with each other but not with flies (observed at the Happy Trail Spider Works and Bubble Preserve)



the happy trail bees will also nibble dog food off your toe*



*inadvertently (no one does this on purpose) i stepped in something gooey in the kitchen but didnt notice

later, meditating on the deck, i felt a nuzzle on the bottom of my little toe / a bee was nibbling the gooey thing


the taming power of the small



did you know that bees like Meat, Grease, Pork Fat, and gooeyness of dog food clinging to the little toe ?

and then they make honey !

instead of meatloaf or pate

the bees have a hive and a Queen in the sycamore across the creek, the sycamore to the left when you look out from the window room

sometimes they swarm and go away

they always come home again



(from Coming of Age in Potanga / primary tablet / undated)

Last Daze in Potanga

Last Daze in Potanga

leaving potanga behind (april one 1990)

saying goodbye to my daughter and grandson / sitting then on the deck with a fresh cup of coffee in a bright yellow cup / a little teary eyed to think of missing these wonderful trees that are here and that made more than any other single thing or event it was the trees and the birds that made it possible for me to stay here as long as i did

limbo has no plan

limbo is a lollygag, a full-tilt piddle

finally rises / washes the dishes and tills the soil around the new pansy bed

limbo lingers

limbo dont last long enough / segues into a stew a snit a swivet

we are readying the Bubble for a long trip around the world (there will be no more at home Dodger games) sorry about that

onward and upward / sideways too / here we go / gonna hit the Zig Zag Trail

^^^^^^^^^^^

Departure Strategeze Elevated to Commemorative Memorial Rites and Rituals

To Be Specifc :

packing the truck is the dominant theme

objects to be placed in back of truck : a three dimensional puzzle

containers (boxes dressers suitcases trunks bags et cetera must contain items suitable to the position of the container (or such as noted above) : in the back of the truck

this means if you want “it” to be handy or readily available dont pack it in a container that will be at the wrong end of the bus / so to speak

now for a few simple “rules” : to reduce confusion and minimize extraneous inner dialogue : once packed, it stays packed, no switching from container to container unless Emergency or getting “it” out because you need “it” now

i am selling my house
i am suing a neighbor
i have two lawyers
i am trying to keep my health together
i am mini-bingeing splurging indulging in Litany of Woe
struggling with integration
in the face of Blatant Fragmentation

and about to take a hot bath out back under the trees
and floss my teeth

Celebrating and Honoring the Rituals of my Dying Life Style

Today's Word

abscond ABSCOND

Flee Bolt Escape Fly Take Flight Take Wing

Wing it
Beat it
Skip Out
Skedaddle Skidoodle Skiddoo Skiddee

Vamoose Light Out RUN

Take To Your Heels !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Make A Quick Exit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




take off clear out make tracks cut out cut and run fly the coop

SPLIT
SCRAM
BLOW

Slip Slink Slither

Take the Money and Run







leave without saying goodbye

And Now it is August

A Salsa Summer

i prefer salsa fresca (fresh) e cruda (uncooked)

i prefer hand chopped ripe tomatoes / sweet onions like walla walla or Texas Sweets / jalapeno chiles / squeezes of lemon / a little olive oil to smooth it over / maybe a shake of Real Salt

big handful fresh cilantro rough chopped added just before serving/eating

i bought three kinds of chips to see which i like best / the first ones i bought this season were too thick and not crispcrunchy

to become a candidate in the chip competition the chip must be organic, no gmo, no hydrogenated oils

the current candidates are :

BEARITOS all natural Tortilla Chips made with organic yellow corn

GARDEN OF EATIN’ Blue Chips all natural tortilla chips made with organic blue corn

both of the above are in the traditional triangular shape

GARDEN OF EATIN’ MINI yellow rounds all natural bite-size tortilla chips / these are cute / hold skimpy amount of salsa most of it on your thumb

the mini’s are better smeared with a little goat cheese and then dipped in the salsa giving the salsa something sticky to adhere to and upping the treat to a more substantial “mouth feel”

speakina goat cheese i am on a goat cheese making exploration

Sunday is milk run day / we/i drive to LaSal / a rural ranching community 25 miles s/se of Moab where a pretty young woman of the Lakota raises a herd of goats

the trip through awe-inspiring rock walls cliffs and canyons with the Blues (the Abajo Mountains) on the distant right is an invigorating treat

we get several gallons of fresh raw goat milk / visit the “girls” and bring them fruits from our trees to thank them for their gift

to the fresh raw goat milk i add a culture from Scandinavia called “fil mjolk” (there is an accent jigger somewhere over “mjolk”) / the culture encourages the milk to coagulate / the curds separate from the whey after a day or two

the curds and whey are poured through a clothlined colander and tied up into a bag and hung over a bowl to drain / the whey drips out / in a day or two when the dripping has ceased open the bag and remove lovely creamy fresh goat cheese

the whey is tasty to drink tart and refreshing when chilled / Dought likes a bowl of it / so does the pretty little climbing rose i brought back from California

the fil mjolk culture when fed with heavy cream makes a divine creme fraiche / fed with half and half makes a lighter version / fed with coconut milk makes a charming addition to curries / fed with soy milk keeps a vegan happy

being multi-cultural we have several others like kefir and yogurt

now back to the salsa

having enlisted a dozen tomato plants of varying styles there are a lot of tomatoes / a LOT of tomatoes

the tomatillo volunteers are a sturdy and courageous bunch / they are pushing and shoving at the tomato plants / the little tomatillos popping out of their skins in their rush to be sent to the front

some of them are the purple ones

tomatillos love to get together with green chiles to make salsa verde or chile verde

i expect to can some of this combination to use this winter for pork and avocado burritos with chile verde / or for chicken chile verde enchiladas and tamales

o yum / almost forgot about making tamales

allora, tutti sta bene, ciao

Dwadwee X-plains

Plans and Intentions

a plan is when you decide to do something later -
at a future time

you also decide the future time for beginning the plan

you decide the elements and details that will satisfy
the requirements of the plan

that means, you decide how you will proceed
once the plan is in motion

sometimes you make up a schedule or timetable
to use as a structure of the plan

(you think about what to wear
and when to where
lots of thinking about
your hair)



wish plus knowledge creates a purpose

purpose creates a plan


intention provides the necessary Oomph

intention means you really really really
want to do it and you are gonna no matter
what : this is Unbending Intent

you also need a measure of Oomph

without a quantum leap of Ooomph
a plan hasn’t got a chance

intentions falter
fall by the wayside

but

OOOOOMPH will carry on



(Dwadwee is gonna have to x-plain Ooooomph
now

(note how regular use of ooooooomph increases
its power)

SPUNK * MOXIE * PIZZAZZ

that’s what ooooomph is